To My Second Born

To My Second Born:

You may not have been the first, but you are teaching me even more about motherhood than I expected.

Before you arrived I was so worried that I wasn’t ready to add another baby into the mix after I was finally getting the hang of just one.

I would be lying if I said I didn’t question whether I made a mistake- if I would fail- if I was capable of loving two equally.

But then you arrived.

I can’t explain the way my heart grew instantly. And just like I couldn’t imagine life with two before you came along, I now couldn’t imagine life without you.

You’re teaching me to take in everything more than I did the first time. To trust myself and enjoy myself rather than question myself. My confidence with you is greater than it was with your brother - this allowing me to be in the moment rather than stress in the moment.

I am now aware that the hard times will feel like they’re going to last forever, but they don’y. Time actually flies by. That the late nights will test my limits, but they will eventually end along with your need for me every second because your independence will grow every day. I’ll wake up one day and miss the way you needed me.

No you weren’t THE first, but we still have OUR firsts.
No you didn’t make me a mom, but you’re making me a BETTER one.

I love you my second born, more than I ever thought was possible.

Love,
Your mommy